Morning sunshine Revealed the time As 7 am. There were no clocks in the room, apparently nothing but human faces here and there. I was sitting in a corner of the room ,just opposite to a friend.I can feel the pleasant weather outside,But my heart reminded me that our situation was not exactly pleasant. we both didn spoke a word but our eyes did spoke many . Facial sweats keep telling the outer world about our inner feeling. we were not alone in the rooms , there were 2 others accompanying us. They were man of charisma ,they didn’t show a moment of restlessness as us but were throughly enjoying their stay at that room as sachin plays his cricket. Both are well built , equipped with modern machine guns in uniforms . They were discussing about various things ,everything was pretty much audible but nothing reached my brain. several million random thoughts keep on flashing across my mind. i want to talk , but i’m unable even to spell a word in that room.
The Silence was broken atlast , there are no more birds humming and a random vehicle’s sssh sound .There are large of movement of men outside .You can visualize the boots ramping and running hard , and fleeing birds . I can visualize the scene outside. Fear is catching me near. My heart was beating at a speed which was alien to it before. one of the uniformed men , went to the balcony -showed us that we were in the first floor of the building -. He had a good look at the enviroment outside ,he casually reported back to the other one . Both of them had quick word with each other . It seemed that they were waiting for this moment , ready for all . They were busy packing their materials – i see nothing other than guns – and finally informed us that the whole building was surrounded by army troops !! and told us that there is noway to stop the inevitable and they are preparing for the final battle or in short -martyrdom- . They should have felt disgusted seeing the fear in our faces , didn’t care to talk more to us then . our eyes shone Propagating our impeding horrible end . I have never experienced this feeling , though everyone knows death is the ultimate end awaiting you most of us don’t have the courage to face it. i’m no more than a ordinary person . Many things /persons were in poping up in my memory but only one thing is there , ’ I Wanna Live ,Anyhow” . I tried hard to wipe the fear of death from my face before those brave men but , i failed miserably . i felt , fear of death is more than the death itself. i felt ashamed to be a coward even when 2 teachers were showing me ,how to face death with a smile and die like a man . Eventhough in the extreme emotions and cowardly man inside me taking the lead, i don’t want to leave them alone though i cant help them in any way. Though , i had many unfinished ambitions/desires/duties left in this world , Surviving by Leaving them die alone, would leave me as a dead man forever . Instead of living as a Dead man forever , i Decided to Die as a man once for all ! ! .
I heard a Loud blast Suddenly – all important things happen suddenly only - , that was what i last heard or remembered about that moment. my vision went blank , my senses ceased to work there after
I’m back to my senses ,Now but i can feel my hands shivering , body shacking. I was in my bed , in chennai !!!.It was a Dream !!! , i searched my cell and found that time has already passed 8 , i need to rush to the office . I have my own deliverables , own commitments , own issues to carry on and then this is just a Dream – i dont need to care much -, i started preparing myself for a another day @ office. A question raised in my mind, do everything is a dream , u need to carry on your works without any giving much thought to what ever happens around you ? . i felt ashamed , even when a million people lose their life in ethnic struggle about 100kms , i was busy nursing my own goals, ambitions , welfares …
for more of my views on what am i talking about here and who are those 2 uniformed men came in my dream ? Let me write a second part of this article .
